This is from an e-mail I sent to friends as we were getting closer to Abby's surgery. It's about how I was processing the challenges of life. The reference to my mom is the fact that she was dealing with major effects from the treatment of her throat cancer at the same time as Abby's diagnosis and open heart surgery.
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(From April 19, 2007)Last Tuesday I took all three kids to the doctor's office (never do that, by the way!!) and came home with three prescriptions, two for Titus and one for Abby. As I drove home, I emotionally felt like those prescriptions were the proverbial "straw that broke the camel's back". I couldn't do it anymore.
So, I sent a few e-mails, made a couple phone calls, and cleared my calendar for a month. It's been wonderful. Josiah's been sick too, so I haven't even had to make the twice daily run to get him to kindergarten and back. We get up in the morning, play, do projects, get breakfast. . . it's been so nice to not have anywhere that we HAVE to go!! I didn't realize how much I needed relief from the weight of my responsibilities until they were lifted off and I began to see how heavy the burden truly was.
So, I sent a few e-mails, made a couple phone calls, and cleared my calendar for a month. It's been wonderful. Josiah's been sick too, so I haven't even had to make the twice daily run to get him to kindergarten and back. We get up in the morning, play, do projects, get breakfast. . . it's been so nice to not have anywhere that we HAVE to go!! I didn't realize how much I needed relief from the weight of my responsibilities until they were lifted off and I began to see how heavy the burden truly was.
Sunday I had a phenomenal time of worship in our "Cedar Hall service". It was such a sweet time of personal worship and taking communion. It's difficult to describe, but I realized that though I had cleared my calendar, I had not yet truly released my BURDENS to the Lord. From Abby's upcoming surgery, to Titus' growing four year old attitude, to Josiah's sensitive way of seeing life, to my marriage, and my mom. . . . the burdens of my mind and heart were heavy. I sensed an invitation from God to give Him all my burdens, that HE is enough and He can carry them so much better than I. I'm really not sure how a spiritual decision works itself out in every day practicality - but I can tell you that I don't carry my burdens alone. And you don't have to either.
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