Not perfect, Beloved

I've changed my life goal recently. Unbeknownst to me, my previous life goal was to be God. In my attempts to always say and do the right thing, to always be to others who they needed and solve their problems, and most of all to be perfect, I was seeking to fill the longings in my soul by meeting the longings in the souls of others. Well, when you get right down to it - trying to solve the problems and meet the longings of others is trying be God in their lives. For He is the only one who can save.

So I've spent some time getting over my Savior complex. It helped once I knew it was there. Funny thing about blind spots - you can't see them! This is perhaps the most important discovery of my last 6 months - the truth that I had a life goal that was completely unattainable. So I decided to switch goals.

I asked God what He thought of me, and who He calls me to be - presuming He agrees that "perfect" is not His call on my life - I had this deep sense of being loved, and the word "Beloved" just kept being impressed on my mind. So, I've decided that being Beloved is what I'm called to be - and it's such a great life goal because it's already attained. I just have to learn how to walk in it, rest in it, and live from it.

With a heart of gratitude, and a new goal - I'm signing off.

p.s. Here's a song that's been very meaningful to me lately.